Pen and ink on watercolor paper, 11" x 14", 2017. Most of us have felt some dissatisfaction with our appearances and physical abilities. Media and cultural pressures don't help. The promise of perfection, especially the "perfect" body, islike a neon sign. We are easily enchanted by things pleasing to the eye. For some of us its pursuit could lead to dark waters swarming with...low self-esteem and self-confidence simultaneous with high standards, which can slip into self-harm, particularly in Eating Disorders...and that lure is attached to the Monster itself.
Anorexia consumes its victims whole, while forbidding them from happily or even neutrally consuming anything. It promises beauty, but it is nothing but grotesque. It turns every mirror into a funhouse mirror, except that the circus is your life, and Anorexia is the ring master. As you starve yourself and reach for that lure, you starve yourself of everything else: only your "health regime" matters, and you have little to no interest for anything else. If you do, it is to pursue some orthogonal ideal, upon a high pedestal.